Well, here I am. Tail between my legs, with absolutely no excuse for my long disappearance. I’m certain my little corner of the world on here are more than fine with the hiatus, but I do owe myself an apology.
What can I say? ‘Life got in the way’ seems awfully cliche while extremely appropriate. I’ve said time and time again that this blog was all about a huge moment in my life. The moment where I decided to take my passions seriously. The moment where I decided ‘fuck everyone’s judgement’ and that I was going to do something for me. The moment where I decided to do me. & The moment where I decided to choose happiness over a serious career path.
For the past 2 years I have been entirely dedicated and committed to making my dream come true. I’ve wanted more than anything to forget about the payroll and the career path everyone expects of me. I’ve wanted to pursue my passions and make them a reality. For me, this meant working in publication. By that I do mean magazines. I’ve wanted to be on the editorial side and learn more about this world, and hopefully take on the beauty side of it.
The past few months have been hectic to say the least. I made the decision to spend my time the way I wanted to, and if there weren’t time for writing a blog post that day then there was no pressure. That certainly snowballed into me writing this post 3 months later. Over the past few months, I’ve finally come close to grasping my dream.
I will never forget the moment 5 months ago. I just woke up one day and realized how long it had been and how many failed attempts I had made. People’s frown lines everytime I mentioned I was still unemployed grew deeper and deeper. I woke up, and I knew I had failed. It was that day that I started my job search for any desk job I could find. Little did I know, that my dream would come find me.
Fast forward to 3 months ago. The job search was still a dead end, but I was committed to that now. That’s when this opportunity came up. I won’t go into too much depth, but I am finally where I feel I belong. I’m so close to finalizing this step and making my dreams come true. I’m interning at a magazine and the light at the end of the tunnel of making this my full time job is brighter than ever. Just as I decided to let go, my dream came to me.
2 months in and things are getting shaky. Things feel like they’re slipping between my fingers and I can feel my heart sinking. Suddenly I find myself back on the market searching for any job that’ll pay the bills. And just when the darkness seemed to be closing in, it came to me. My beacon of light when there was no other. This blog will always remind me of my passions and my dreams. Every time I write a post I feel content. I never want to leave this blog behind. The purpose behind it was never to monetize it, simply to have something to do that brought me so much happiness and somewhere to turn to whenever I come close to leaving my dreams behind.
The long story not-so-short is, I am back. I have no idea how often I’ll write on here, only that I will…
Thank you for all of your continued support on here, you couldn’t possibly imagine the impact it has had on me throughout this journey…